And the story continue!!

Gooooood morning!!

So first of all I wanted to tell you all that I didnt have a nightmare tonight. I slept like a baby in my huge queensize princessbed... I love it. The dream always start with tha we walk past a hobo on the street me and my friend. And we're talking about something and he interferes in the conversation and I tell him to fuck off and that we dont care about low lifes like him. But he starts to follow me and my friend wherever we go. And when we return to me and my parents house hes still there right behind us. So we go inside the house and look the doors and everything but he wont go away. Hes standing outside the windows and keep talking and knocking on windows and doors. Eventually I open the door and tell him Im gonna call the police if he doesnt stop. So he hides in the garden and my friend leaves. I walk down in the basement when I hear that someone is crashing a window. But guess what. Nowhere to escape. And he captures me and attach a "timebomb" to me. No idea why the dream decided to call it time bomb but it did. The bomb makes me teleport right back to him if Im more then 100 metres away from him or away more then 10 minutes without him. And it just keeps going on and on and on.. And it gets worse all the time. And this dream scares the shyt out of me. But anyway. Sleeping is important, to bad everyone doesnt know that. Without your sleep your body soon will start to fall apart. A grown up person should get atleast 6 hours of sleep each night, we can survive on 4 but 6 hours is the best and recommended time. For younger people like kids its atleast 8 hours each night. And breakfast is another thing alot of people dont eat. Like Im really bad at it. But Im starting to get better and eat breakfast every morning. I usualy eat wheatbread or toasted bread with ham or jelly a cup of tea (good for ur teeth and a lil bit of coffein) and a glass of orange juice (usually homemade like the one I telled u about in the last post). So you should really think of how much you sleep and eat. I cant say I do that all the time but I atleast started to. I had horrible eating habits before. When I was in 8 grade I had anorexia which isnt the best. But I dont have that anymore thanks to my amazing dad. I dont ask for anyone to feel sorry for me. But I realised lately that the habits since that period still is in my head and Im using all my power to fight that. -smiles proud-

Friday!

So anyway friday night was really fun like I said exept when 4-5 guys grabed me and wanted me to dance for just them. And that was it. I dont like that. Sure I love to stand on the stage and let everyone see my but Im not a freaking whore thats gonna give anyone a striptease at the bar. But I found a great solution for that. I found a childhood friend that night. And when those guys grabbed me I just pointed at him and said that hes my bf.. And that worked so good.. Im gonna do that again. I dont like when strangers grab me and try to make me do stuff I dont want to. If I say no and mean it the person gonna hear it. =) I got home and I didnt have any drunk food this night. First night in forever. I usualy eat something with lactose which isnt good cuz my tummy hurt so bad in the morning when I wake up. Im a lactose intolerant. I can eat a lil bit of lactose if I take my pills. But I would rather avoid it. Milk doesnt work at all even if I eat my pills.

Saturday!

I didnt do anything today. Not a thing. I just relaxed all day with a hungover. Not a headache kinda hungover. More like Im so tired I wanna die hungover. But I drank alot of water and I still do. I bring my water bottle everywhere exept the toilet. I cant eat anything in there or drink. It freaks me out. Ewwy!! Guess I didnt get a horrible hungover since I drank alot of water while I was partying. Im learning now. Im getting better. Soon Im gonna be a pro drinker. Nah Im not gonna drink that much. I can drink every wednesday, friday and saturday and sometimes thursday. I just cant. I dont wanna be a 20 year old alcoholic. That may destroy the rest of my life if Im not careful. And I got alot to live for. And I cant leave everyone I love can I? So I just here in my couch or computer chair and did nothing. And thats like the best thing to do the day after a party.

So whats happening today. Well I have to eat soon cuz now my stomach starts to scream for food. And its starting to hurt. And I also gotta run to my school for like 1.5 hour and do some stuff. So i got things planned today. Oh and I gotta do the dishes. WTF. My kitten is insane.. I dont know whats wrong with that cat but something is it. Shes really wierd.

Well Im almost done and ready to go. I would actually rather be home today. It looks so darn cold outside and Im freezing just by looking at it.. Please let me be home. PLEASE!!!

Ill write more later

See ya/

Em<3