Christmas

FInally xmas. Sitting here in Peters familys house and eating candy right now. In Sweden we celebrate xmas december 24th ever year. Its a Astrid Lindgren movie on the TV now, Ronja Rövardotter, dont know the name in english and Im to tired to google it. I LOOOOVE Ronja. My favorite Astrid Lindgren character. If you dont know who Astrid Lindgren is you should google her.

Shes a really famous dead Swedish Authour (dont know how to spell it and Im still to tired to look it up). Awww movie just ended... Darn. Guess I gotta buy the movie or download it.

Almost time to open xmas gifts. YEEEY!!!

Miss my friends so much. Miss Steve love, Marc, Cam, Jett and EVERYONE else. Cant name everyone would take so much space and I dont have alot of time to write right now. And tomorrow we gonna celebrate a second christmas with my family and thats gonna be fun.

And on the evening and night is PARTAH TIME withmy girls. Well time to leave..

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

/Em<3

Thuesday

And so its x-mas.... Finally. Ill try and write more tonight if I get internet!!

Carpe Diem and merry x-mas/

Em<3

Its not friday

No its not friday today. Although I thought it was all day. So kinda sucks to realize its actually saturday. But then again I got my x-mas break now.. YEEY! Feels soooooo good.... Listening to one of my new favorite songs from my new favorite artist Lady GaGa.. Playing lovegame right now. Dammit love that song so much.

So whats happening tonight. Um no idea actually. Im invited to a party but I dont really feel like going. First of all I dont wanna drink today second I dont wanna be sick anymore and partying doesnt really make me better. So ill see if I show up.

Well anyways got home from work 2 hours ago so Im tired. And gonna go take a nap now. BUT FIRST! Im gonna try and upload my first vidoe on blog. Maybe later more vids =)

Its my kitten and her eating habits. She always play with the food before eating it. So darn cute...

Waited 5 minutes now. Lets hope this works......

1 day later....

Nope it didnt work. Video was to big. I dont like that. A video you want to upload have to be a maximum of 100 MB.. Thats not good. We wanna be able to upload bigger videos. Its not like Im gonna upload porn or anything....

Anyway I did x-mas candy yesterday. Me and some friends used my BFs dads bakery (?) to make the candy there. Had so much fun and made alot of candy and gingerbread. Mmmm x-mas almost here. Its a bit sad tho since Im not gonna celebrate it with my family. First time in 20 years and thats hard for me. I wanna be with them but this year we have to be at Peters parents house. They dont even eat x-mas food so it toally sucks. But I promised him.

Note to self: If u break up with him every x-mas you dont have to celebrate x-mas with his family.

That sounds like a pretty good idea in my ears but I cant to do. Ill meet my family the day after anyways so not that bad.

I got myself myspace today. Still trying to figure out how it works tho, Not that easy. Guess I will learn some day. Atleast I know how my precious blog works.. mmm blog *drools*

Time to do something.

See you all later/

Em<3

in school

Last day in school now. FINALLY! And Im about to finish my last exam. Just waiting for the teacher to arrive so we can finish this shyt. Its a exam in photostory. Its actually really really fun, and laughed duing the whole class. No need to study for this exam either. The only thing we had to do before we came here this morning was to bring own pictures. And thats all. Then he teached us everything in the beginning of the class and now its time to show the class what we made.
So december 19th today and still got all x-mas gifts to buy. Kinda annoying. But still got 5 days until x-mas. So in about 1 hour I finally got my x-mas break but I need to study anyway got a exam right after x-mas break. Well ok 1 exam and 1 paper to turn in. But those are easy so I feel relived about everything. I know I can do this.
Wearing amazing clothes right now. Wearing my new shirt I bought and shoes.. <33 those clothes. Not the time to talk clothes right now. Although I gotta buy new clothes for new year.. And thats really soon. Still dont know what to do. Maybe I'll have the party at my place otherwise Im gonna go to a friends house and have a jolly good time.. =)
Och teacher just came. I'll write later...

Take care/
Em<3

Friday

Still snowing! Its beautiful. Although this time its wet snow which means its gonna be horrible to walk outside. Good thing Im indoors then.

Just got out from the shower. A nice and warm shower, waiting for Peter to get home so we can clean the apartment, not a very fun thing to do but its almost xmas and then it has to be spotless. Gotta start making the xmas cookies and stuff now also. Alot to do.

Not much happened so far today. Kinda sucks actually I woke up REALLY late and after that I just played some PC and finished me school work. So Im done with that now. Finally. Got some things left to do in school tho. But only a few days left in school now before xmas holiday. Its gonna be amazing.

Work tomorrow and on sunday. Its gonna be SO MUCH FUN! I love that job. Its in a book store so I meet alot of people. Cant wait. Think it was like 4 months since I worked the last time. I quit my job at subway when I started school. I didnt have time for a job then. But now when things starts to calm down I can work some extra.

Ok time to go and actually do something so I have something to write about.

So See u later.. Carpe Diem

/Em<3

A december thursday

Morning ppl!

So I was planning on going out last night. And we had out little pre party at my friends place. We drank some alcohol and talked and had loads of fun. 10.30 pm we decided that its time to go to the studentbar. It was the last time this year it was open and its usually CROWDED then. So 10.30 was a good time, early and nice. We stood there for 30 minutes waiting to get in. ALOT of people. After those 30 minutes they told us that it was already closed. They wouldnt let more people get in. And that totally sucked. So we decided to go to bed early instead. Ofcourse we could have partied at another bar, but those bars arent fun exept from like saturdays. So I got home all mad and wet cuz of the damn snow. Dont get me wrong. I love when the ground and trees are white. My x-mas is white. Cant imagine a x-mas without snow.

Mm listening to one of my favorite songs right now. Lady GaGa - Poker Face. I just LOVE that song. Its amazing.

So a couple of days ago I tried this new face mask with dead sea minerals and chocolate. OMG it was amazing and I had to take a picture. I looked like a vanilla cupcake with chocolate frosting. So cute. Of course I had to do some sort of silly face too. And since Im a pretty open person, otherwise I wouldnt write blog, Im gonna put a picture here while wearing the mask. Not alot of girls do that. Actually Ive never ever seen a picture like that. But hey Im not wearing make up all the time even tho I like to look gorgeous or atleast good. But when Im home Im just natural me, no make up, no fancy clothes. Its simply just me. And thats how its supposed to be according to me.

Oh dont remember if I wrote it before but got my new glasses today. Im gonna use them in school so I dont get a headache all the time. Im actually pretty tired of getting headaches. So I just bought myself a new pair of PURE AWESOMENESS glasses. Its from one of my favorite designers, got Jewellry from her aswell. Then I decided to spoil myself today so I bought food at a "resturant". McDonalds. Ok not a resturant and not spoil myself. I was gonna buy real food but I got really dizzy and the closest food place was McDonalds. I didnt have much. Just a cheeseburger, carrots and a orange juice. And when I got home I ate some sandwiches with ham.. Yummy..

Think Im gonna go to some friends today and watch Kenny Starfighter. U prolly dont know what that is but thats because its a Swedish TV show for kids and teenagers. Its a pretty old TV program but its so much fun.

Time to do some chores in my apartment. Ill write later or maybe tomorrow depends on if something interesting happen after this post. =) And dont say anything about the picture that mihgt be mean. I did upload it. So now you know Im human atleast... *laughs*

Carpe Diem/

Em<3

WOOWOO

Gooooood day!!!

Ive been a bad girl again, didnt write for several days. But thats how it is when u got alot in school. But almost done and almost christmas break now. Next friday.

But anyways. Last day at the studentbar today for this year. Feels kinda sucky since u meet ALOT of cool ppl there and have loads of fun every time. None cares how you dance and its alot of jumping up and down and cheap alcohol. I love the student bar. To bad its only opened once each week.

So almost time to get ready for all the partying tonight. Im gonna be sooo tired when I get home around 2-3 am. No places opened after that and ppl got school on thursday which sucks because I dont have school until thuesday next week... YEYEY.... Feels awesome. Exept that Im alone in my apartment because everyone else is working.

Guess I can have fun by myself. Maybe some dancing or maybe go out for a nice walk even tho its REALLY cold outside now. Was snowing earlier today. OMG ITS SNOWING NOW!!! Sooooooooooooo beautiful! Gotta take a picture even tho its gonna be hard to see the snow. BRB!!............................................... (3 minutes later).... Ok I had to open the window to take a good picture but its freezing cold outside. So now Im shaking. But gonna take a shower now anyway. Or do the dishes first I think... yea sounds like a awesome idea. Well then Im off. I PROMISE Im gonna write more tomorrow and tell you guys about my awesome party night. But for now Im out of here..

Picture taken from my window.. COLD!

Thank you for reading!!

Have fun now and take care.. You only live once (atleast what we know) so carpe diem!

/Em<33

meow meow

Moooooorning Everyone!!

December 2nd today.. Which means I gotta start to buy the christmas gifts for everyone. And something for me to wear on christmas eve and new year. Tradition in my family to buy new clothes when we celebrate something or something special is happening. Like bdays, christmas and new year etc. And I love that tradition. Makes me feel pretty and beautiful every time. Maybe Im gonna go to the mall today and buy something. I mean its only 22 days left.

I just finished my breakfast. Mmm so good. Ive been awake since 7.40 am and now almost 1 pm Im eating my breakfast. Thats bad but worse yesterday when I had my breakfast 4 pm.

So I havent wrote anything in a long time. Not anything serious that is. But not much happened. I mean Ive only been studying the whole time. To a test I didnt do anyway. So it was pretty much a waste of my time. I decided to do the test in 3-4 weeks instead. After christmas. I didnt feel prepared and I didnt wanna fail the test cuz I suck. And that would be embarrassing, atleast for me.

Sitting in my apartment right now, I dont wanna leave my cozy warm couch today. Its raining outside and look awfully cold.

I need a backmassage, guess I slept in a wierd way cuz my back is really fucked up. Hurts when I breath and then you know its a bad thing. So Im gonna get someonet to massage me later.

Oh I bought the book twilight now. Gonna start to read it today I think. Or clean my apartment. Almost time to REALLY clean it and make it spotless before the holiday is here.

Maybe I should start now. Yes Ill do that do I can do something fun tonight. Ill write more tonight.

Take care and have fun/

Em <3>

Thoughts

Sorry again for not writing. But I really do have alot to study. Huge exam on monday. But enough of that.

So I saw that movie Twilight today. My new favorite movie. And I started to think about my own life. Am I really happy with the life I got now? Is this the right guy for me or not? Got alot to think about. This got my mind going crazy. I dont mean I wanna have a life like in that movie. Im just simply asking myself if Im happy. Right now I would go for a no...
Ill write more tomorrow <333

Sunday

Omg I havent wrote anything since wednesday! Ive been really busy doing alot of stuff.. Got alot of school stuff to do right now. Like 1 huge exam on about 600 pages and 2 huge papers to write at the same time. Kinda sucks. But Im the one who wanted to start school so its my fault. And I get something for it all. Just like 3-4 years left. Going to be fun tho.

Wednesday!

So party day today! Had loads of gun. Me and my friend and classmate Alexandra decided to go out and have some fun. So pre-party at her place then off to the student bar. The student bar is prolly the funniest bar ever. I mean going to a real bar now is just boring. And cuz my town is so international its alot of exchange students there and ppl from other parts of Sweden. Which I like. Me and Alexandra never realised that we have so much in common. We talked alot and laughed all the time as we drank our vodka.. Mmm vodka with limesoda. So darn good and u cant taste the alcohol. Around 10-11 pm we decided to get moving. Freezing cold outside tho. But inside on the dancefloor its freaking insanly hot. I payed for one drink that evening. Met the most stupid guy ever. He thought that just because Im blonde Im really stupid and sleep with everyone. And he braged about it for his friends. And I got him to pay all my drinks that night. Stupid fuker. And in the end I didnt go home with him as he thought. Some people surprises me. Well well. I screwed the stupid one on alot of money. A thing I usually dont do is to use people, but this time was different since he called me stupid infron of his friends and also told them that he found "a stupid blonde hes gonna bang tonight" when I heard him. So he deserved it.

Thursday!

Omg prolly one of the most horrible hangovers ever. I slept like 4-5 hours and woke up with a headache from hell. But I drank alot of water and was gonna take a nap around 2 pm. Didnt work tho. I found a movie on TV, shooter, and I just couldnt stop watching. I fell for it right away. Yes I do love those kinda movies even tho it doesnt seem like it. I prefer funny movies tho, so I can laugh. Not much happened today. I just sat in the couch and felt sorry for myself and my hangover.

Friday!

PARTY DAY! First I wasnt supposed to go out. But a friend wanted me to come so I just couldnt say no to that. If they ask me, which the usually do, I cant let them down. They count on me. Alot of people want me to come to their parties. And Im a nice girl and do it. So we had a little pre-party here my and 4 friends of mine and then around 11 pm it was time to shake our asses off. And ofcourse my bartender was working. Hes awesome. Think I already said that in another post. But he really knows what I like. Mmm favorite drinks and shots. Shots are so funny. But can be pretty bad also. I mean 4 shots in 15 minutes doesnt work for me. Gets me so freakin drunk its insane. Came home about 2 am or something cuz thats the time when the bars closes. And I was to tired for a after party. So I went home instead eating some drunk food. Chicken with rice and garlic sauce. Not the best idea since Im a lactose intolerant. But damn sooooo gooood!! Em likes!

Saturday!

yet another day with a hangover. Not much happened. Exept I was like horny all day. Yes Im sorry to say it. I just wanna be honest. It was totally insane. But I solved the problem myself. -smiles- Got invited to a party today but I didnt go. I was way to tired and didnt want to. So I didnt go. I was home playing some computer instead.

Sunday!

So whats happening today? Well I have to clean my apartment after the pre-party friday night. And I want it clean if Im gonna study, which I really have to do now. Im gonna start a bit today. Its alot of studying to do. Ugh Im hungry. I should prolly go eat. Mmmm eating... Im starting to get good at it. Not last night tho. I just got a really wierd feeling in my chest. Like someone was sitting on my chest. So i actually fainted and hit my head in the wall.. But I ate and drank something and feel WAAAY better now. So im gonna go eat breakfast so it doesnt happen again. Cuz that was really scary. Well time to go eat now. Im starving... Tummy is talking to me. Then time to get naked and take a shower!

Have fun and take care/

Em<3

Goooooood Morning People!!

I didnt have time to write anything after the last post yesterday. And when I finally had time it was way to late and I went to bed. And bed is always good. So I actually fell asleep about 12 am and woke up 8.05 om, that means like 8 hours of sleep and I really needed that. And i ate breakfast already. Two toasted bread and a glass of chocolatemilk.

Okey now 7 hours later Im gonna finish this blog post. I decided that its time now. And Im actually not soing anything. Surprised? I was stuyding but then I saw blog and I wanna finish this post before I continue with the boring stuff.. And that is my school books. I got 1 papers to turn in to school next week and in 3 weeks I got a huge exam and another HUUUUGE paper which Im gonna turn in. Yep alot of things going on now. But this is what I wanna do. I wanna become the best teacher in the world. Atleast according to my students Im gonna have. My little kids. Aww.. Going to be so fun. New things going on everday and all the funny stories you get to hear from the lil ones.

Snap Im tired. I should go and take a nap but then its gonna be hard to sleep tonight and we dont want that since I got early school tomorrow. Dont even remember what kinda class I got. Wait lemme check. Oh some psycology class or something. ugh I can see the school book in front of me but I really dont wanna read it right now. Its a really boring book about familys.

Oh gonna upload some pictures now and write more later on. I really really do have to read my books and make something to eat before I starv to death. And that would be pretty bad since I enjoy my living life.

Oh I so badly wanna dance. Guess I can dance my way out to the kitchen and dance while I make my food. YEEEEY!

Ok I didnt eat I forgot that. Got so busy singing again. Ive been singing all day its insane. Voice is getting tired BUT screw that. If I wanna sing and dance Im gonna sing and dance.

Anyway heres some pictures I found on my pc. And after this post is done Im actually gonna eat.

Och btw got a new nickname today I love. M&M is my new nick. Now I got 3 nicks I LOOOVE, Ems, Emmy and M&M. Pure happiness. Well time to eat. Thank you so much Jett for the new awesome nick! <33>

Ill write more later. And heres some pictures also!

This is me yesterday I think. Had NOTHING to do so I took a random picture =) (above)

And this is how fun you can have partying. The picture above is my doing something that is supposed to look like Im dancing with my redbull and vodka in my hand and of course a straw! And the other picture is me and a friend another party at my place. Almost a party here ever weekend.

Eating time. Take care and enjoy ur day/

Em<3>

Memories

Im sitting here after my class looking at pictures I got on my PC... And like 90% of them is party pictures. And thats kinda scary cuz Im always so drunk on them. Im gonna put one or more here. Atleast I have so much fun when Im out and alot of friends get like sad if I dont come to the party since I always make everything funnier and make something to happen. Im almost on my way to do to dishes now. Im just so god damn tired its insane. So I guess Im gonna have to drink more tea today. And no school tomorrow.

I was thinking in the shower one day. I was standning there looking down on my tummy. Which is like the one thing I HATE with my body. U know on commercials and in magazines I always see this perfect girl with the perfect flat tummy. Im not saying Im fat or anything, Im still under weight. But I dont got that perfect tummy they do. And that makes me kinda jealous. Then I realised that those pictures almost always are fixed. Its hard to look that perfect and if your a normal human being that takes alot of time and effort to look like that. And alot of people spend money because they wanna look like that girl in the magazine. I cant deny that Ive been thinking those things also because that would be lying and I dont lie. Im a honest person and I always speak the truth unless its REALLY necessery. I mean I cant even lie. If I do you gonna notice it immediatly. I suck at lying and thats a good thing. Oh snap Im just babbling I dont even remember what I was talking about... wait.... Oh yea perfect bodies. So I looked down on my horrible tummy and realised that I cant look like that now. I cant. I wanna be me the normal person and not think about how I look 24/7. Ofcourse I can eat healthy but I cant go training 3 hours a day and buy expensive products to make me look like someone everyone apperantly wants. But.. A HUGE but.. Steve-love told me something wierd I really couldnt understand a while ago. Here alot of guys want that skinny perfect commercial girl. Not anorexia skinny but skinny with a flat tummy and looks perfect. But he said that he and other guys over there dont want that. They wants something to grab on to. Um.. U know what I mean. A normal body that actually got a lil fat on it. And ever since I heard more and more guys from other countries say that. Why is it so different here? Or is it only in my town? Wierd. I can be the most beautiful woman on the earth for the right person.

I have to write more later. Time for some cleaning while my internet sucks. And I really dont wanna study today. Im to tired. =)

And Ashley about that timebomb. Im not sure where it comes from, but maybe your write. <33>

And Ill post the pictures after the cleaning! Then you hopefully got something to look forward to!

Enjoy your day and take care of yourself/

Em<3

Mokiloki

Dont ask me what that word means but its something I like to say and it makes me happy.

So class today was really fun. We actually played games and laughed the entire class. It was a serious class tho. We learned alot of things about communication, like how we talk, the status communication and body language. It was a drama class and those classes have always been really fun. But drama is over right now. No more drama classes for me. After that I came home and made me something to eat. Something not so healthy. I wont even tell you what I had. I dont usually eat unhealthy things but I did today. Well not really unhealthy but not the healthiest you can eat. Atleast I enjoyed the food. It was delicious. So yummy. Didnt eat much tho.

Found some pictures on my camera from my friday night out. Im gonna put two of them here and also another picture I took today. Its just a silly face picture but I like it.

Well not much to write now. Im sitting in front of the TV watching on of my favorite movies right now. The holiday. Pretty much describes what I wanna do. Just get away from here for a while and just be myself and not the person people are trying to change here. People keep pushing in the direction they want me to go.

Look horrible at this picture, standing in the spotlight.. =)

Im gonna watch the movie now. This post already took over 1 hour to write since Im constantly looking up to see the TV....

Gnight and take care/

Em<3

And the story continue!!

Gooooood morning!!

So first of all I wanted to tell you all that I didnt have a nightmare tonight. I slept like a baby in my huge queensize princessbed... I love it. The dream always start with tha we walk past a hobo on the street me and my friend. And we're talking about something and he interferes in the conversation and I tell him to fuck off and that we dont care about low lifes like him. But he starts to follow me and my friend wherever we go. And when we return to me and my parents house hes still there right behind us. So we go inside the house and look the doors and everything but he wont go away. Hes standing outside the windows and keep talking and knocking on windows and doors. Eventually I open the door and tell him Im gonna call the police if he doesnt stop. So he hides in the garden and my friend leaves. I walk down in the basement when I hear that someone is crashing a window. But guess what. Nowhere to escape. And he captures me and attach a "timebomb" to me. No idea why the dream decided to call it time bomb but it did. The bomb makes me teleport right back to him if Im more then 100 metres away from him or away more then 10 minutes without him. And it just keeps going on and on and on.. And it gets worse all the time. And this dream scares the shyt out of me. But anyway. Sleeping is important, to bad everyone doesnt know that. Without your sleep your body soon will start to fall apart. A grown up person should get atleast 6 hours of sleep each night, we can survive on 4 but 6 hours is the best and recommended time. For younger people like kids its atleast 8 hours each night. And breakfast is another thing alot of people dont eat. Like Im really bad at it. But Im starting to get better and eat breakfast every morning. I usualy eat wheatbread or toasted bread with ham or jelly a cup of tea (good for ur teeth and a lil bit of coffein) and a glass of orange juice (usually homemade like the one I telled u about in the last post). So you should really think of how much you sleep and eat. I cant say I do that all the time but I atleast started to. I had horrible eating habits before. When I was in 8 grade I had anorexia which isnt the best. But I dont have that anymore thanks to my amazing dad. I dont ask for anyone to feel sorry for me. But I realised lately that the habits since that period still is in my head and Im using all my power to fight that. -smiles proud-

Friday!

So anyway friday night was really fun like I said exept when 4-5 guys grabed me and wanted me to dance for just them. And that was it. I dont like that. Sure I love to stand on the stage and let everyone see my but Im not a freaking whore thats gonna give anyone a striptease at the bar. But I found a great solution for that. I found a childhood friend that night. And when those guys grabbed me I just pointed at him and said that hes my bf.. And that worked so good.. Im gonna do that again. I dont like when strangers grab me and try to make me do stuff I dont want to. If I say no and mean it the person gonna hear it. =) I got home and I didnt have any drunk food this night. First night in forever. I usualy eat something with lactose which isnt good cuz my tummy hurt so bad in the morning when I wake up. Im a lactose intolerant. I can eat a lil bit of lactose if I take my pills. But I would rather avoid it. Milk doesnt work at all even if I eat my pills.

Saturday!

I didnt do anything today. Not a thing. I just relaxed all day with a hungover. Not a headache kinda hungover. More like Im so tired I wanna die hungover. But I drank alot of water and I still do. I bring my water bottle everywhere exept the toilet. I cant eat anything in there or drink. It freaks me out. Ewwy!! Guess I didnt get a horrible hungover since I drank alot of water while I was partying. Im learning now. Im getting better. Soon Im gonna be a pro drinker. Nah Im not gonna drink that much. I can drink every wednesday, friday and saturday and sometimes thursday. I just cant. I dont wanna be a 20 year old alcoholic. That may destroy the rest of my life if Im not careful. And I got alot to live for. And I cant leave everyone I love can I? So I just here in my couch or computer chair and did nothing. And thats like the best thing to do the day after a party.

So whats happening today. Well I have to eat soon cuz now my stomach starts to scream for food. And its starting to hurt. And I also gotta run to my school for like 1.5 hour and do some stuff. So i got things planned today. Oh and I gotta do the dishes. WTF. My kitten is insane.. I dont know whats wrong with that cat but something is it. Shes really wierd.

Well Im almost done and ready to go. I would actually rather be home today. It looks so darn cold outside and Im freezing just by looking at it.. Please let me be home. PLEASE!!!

Ill write more later

See ya/

Em<3

Cliffhanger

Hiiiii everyone!!

I have write anything for.. um.. Is it 2 days? The last thing I posted was the picture of my party outfit friday night which I didnt wear anyway. You cant blame me Im a girl and I always wanna look my best. Especially when Im out with my friends or someone special. I dont want the other person to be ashamed over how I look.

Well well. I had a awesome time friday night. Dancing for several hours and alot of laughing. I looooooove to go out and have fun. One thing sucks tho. Before you go out to the bar you look awesome, hair and make up perfect, but when you get home you usually look like a wreck. Hair all sweaty and the make up is totoally ruined. Atleast you look like this if you party really hard and theres no air condition or something simular at the bar. I came home around 1 am when I was really tired. And even tho i had really fun there was like only 18 year old kids out. Nothing against them atleast not the guys, but most girls there are bitches at that bar. Atleast my bartender was working that night. He makes the best drinks.. And he knows what I like. I absolutly LOVE drinks with lime. Yummy!!! Lime is prolly the best. And he also knows that I love to eat lime. So he gives me lime fruit just to eat. OMG.. I can eat so much lime its insane. So if you wanna buy me my favorite fruit buy me lime, orange, physalis or strawberries. Mmmm.. nom nom nom... Sooooo gooooood.. You should taste my home made orange juice.. I make a incredible breakfast. Scones or bread (like toasted bread with jelly), scrambled eggs and my orange juice with half a lemon and 1 lime. Thats heaven on earth.

So what happened saturday night? Well if you wanna know I guess you have to read tomorrow. Im really tired right now and I promised Steve-love to get up early. And tomorrow I really will. I just had this terrible nightmare hunting me for some nights now. And it scares the shyt out of me. I woke up after 2-2.5 hour of sleep this night and I couldnt sleep. I woke up screaming and crying. I was all sweaty and shaking like hell. So I sat down by the computer and talked a bit to Steve and told him about the dream.Ill tell you tomorrow morning about the dream. I just hope I wont dream it tonight again. But right now Im gonna try and sleep. Im just scared. Gonna take some time.. Good thing I dont have school tomorrow. Wish my luck...

Gnight hunnyballoas out there and take care/

Em<3

Party!

Its a horrible picture taken by my friend. But this is the outfit I THINK Im gonna wear tonight at the bar! The keyword is THINK... I realised I look fat in that picture... Save meh!!! And Im not smiling or anything. BUt guess that because Im tired and didnt drink anything yet. But now I am.. Mmmm vodka!!!

Emelie-jumps

Moodswings totally sucks. I dont like them at all. I would do ANYTHING to get rid of them. Why isnt there a magic pill in the world that makes all the moodswings disapperar? Or does that already exist? In that case I would appreciate if u told me that. =)

Its been a pretty boring day today. Ive been home with a lil bit of fever. And that was boring as hell. So Ive been freezing ALL day...And I spend some time with one of my loved ones, Steve-darling. Makes me happy when I can spend time with people I like. I cant wait til tomorrow when I get to talk to him and the others again. Hes always so nice to me, and sometimes I even think I dont deserve it. Hes a mystery for me. BUT for me people are bottomless. U can NEVER EVER fully know a person! And I love that!! So anyway about the freezing, in the morning I was fully dressed, I looked like a eskimo, Im serious I really did. Then I had 2 blankets and slippers on. Totally insane. But I just took my temperature right now and guess what. No fever anymore. So tomorrow I can do some training. U see I couldnt really do anything today cuz when Im sick my body gets really weak. And it hurts all over. Feels like it hurts inside my bones and like something is itching inside them. Really wierd and hard to describe the feeling. Guess u have to try it to understand it. I couldnt take a shower until 4 pm and imagine how filthy I felt after all those hours. But I didnt have a choice. None was here to help me shower so I just had to wait until my head didnt feel like boiling mushrooms. And that was around 4 pm. I could also eat something then. I havent eaten much today at all. Ive been a really bad girl. Ive only eaten 3 sandwiches during the day but I just finished a plate of scrambled eggs. Me loooove scrambled eggs and toast with jelly, strawberry jelly.. Mmmm.. Heaven on earth.

Speaking of food. Im still thinking of Gordon Ramsays resturants. Hes my favorite chef in the entire world. Totally amazing. I occasionally watch his shows, hell's kitchen and the F word. I really like him. And its one of my dreams to eat at one of his resturants. I wanna go on a date there. Thats also a thing I wanna do. I wanna go on a real date. U see here in Sweden its not really common to go on dates like they do in like, say USA. So Ive never ever been on a real date and it would be SOOO fun to go on one. Hmm wonder how my perfect date would be.

Im not a girl that asks for much but yea I do like to get things also. And surprises. One thing thats important on my future date is that I have to have fun. Wow Im trying to imagine my perfect date but I cant. Its really hard. One thing I would like to happen once in my life tho is that the guy win a teddybear for me. I know it may sound silly but Ive seen it in many movies and it looks so cute. And that teddy bear is a memory u gonna be able to look at for a long time hopefully.

Watching a movie right now again. I love watching movies before I go to bed or fall asleep in the couch. I prefer sleeping in my bed tho. My princess bed. I have my dream bedroom. And thats all thanks so my amazing mom and dad. Its got 3 white-ish walls and one black. Really high quality on that wallpaper. And I got the most amazing curtains ever. And my bed omg.. My dad painted it for me. Its like pink and white. Mostly white. Dont get scared now. Ill take a picture of my bedroom one day and put here. U gonna love it.. Well atleast like it. Its really beautiful.

Oh anyway. Im talking about everything and Im jumping between the subjects my friends call that Emelie-jump. I always do that. Im PRO at Emelie-jumps maybe that because Im confused most of my time. Dont get me wrong. Im smart but confused. I dont like being called stupid. Im sick of it. Ive been called stupid a huge part of my life and its starting to get boring since I got good grades and Im studying right now. And my teachers now is telling me Im gonna go far. Sure Im just gonna be a teacher. But hey. Teachers learned you alot of things that you know today. Alot of things that you use. Teachers educate the doctors and the polices. The world needs teachers. Its not gonna solve worldpeace. But not many jobs that solves that huge problem.

And I just did another Emelie-jump. I thought of something today. Alot of people I like and care for live in another country. And that kinda sucks. I would need those people around me right now. Because of my moodswings and alot of stress right now Im kinda down. Not depressed just.. down.. hmm.. Wierd... Would be nice with someone who appreciates me for who I am. =)

OMG I havent told u about my real life stalker have I? So this guy, hes a student here in my town. I met him 3 times at the student bar. We only talked nothing else. But we exchanged phonenumbers so we could grab a cup of coffee sometime. Not the very brightest idea I realise now a bit to late. So now he keeps calling me and textmessaging me. And IM me on msn. And one night he called me at 2am, 2 AM FFS! And I just hungup without answering but he called one more time and I did the same thing. But after that time I send him a textmessage saying "Im Sleeping", and he answered me back "theres a serious problem with u, I dont understand u!". Im just like "WTF Im sleeping, its 2 am and I DONT want calls right now!!!" And he answered me back again "Well sleep if u want to, but u still got a serious problem that u gonna have to deal with"... What fuking problem??? Im sleeping I just wanna be alone... Hes the one with the serious problem. And about 2 days ago he asked me on msn "You ready for tomorrow??!" Im just like whats happening tomorrow? And he said "Our cup of coffee I just decided"... Hes totally insane. I so totally regret that I gave him my number. I dont know what to do with him anymore. Got any tips?

Yawn.. Whats happening tomorrow. A friend wants me to go clubbing with her. And that sounds awesome. I mean Im starting to get kinda famous on the bars now. HeHe.. Im proud. I looove dancing. Although Im NOT gonna buy any alcohol at the bar tho. I really cant afford that now. Im pooooooor. And I would rather not gonna have to call my dad soon and ask for money. Thats embarrassing and I wanna be able to take care of myself. Its my own fault if I spend my money on booze..

Well time to watch the end of the movie now I mean I wanna write in my blog not a entire novell. Then you guys gonna get bored. And I wouldnt want that. I want my lovely readers to stay here with me even tho u dont make alot of "noices". U can always feel free to comment what Im writing or ask me questions. This blog is gonna be pretty personal because I want people like you to know the real me. The girl behind the screen. And hopefully you get to know me a little bit.

Gnight everyone... And remember my motto Carpe Diem/

Em<3

In Ems head

Wassssup ppl!!

So my day today have been REALLY wierd. Atleast my mood. Im gonna have a girly week soon and havent had that in a LONG time since Im using a special birth protection. I dont wanna have babies now when Im only 20 years old. Later I do but not right now. Right now I wanna focus on my life and do stuff thats important to me right now. Like meeting new people and have alot of fun.

Exept my wierd mood today that went from laughing to crying its been a terrific day. First I woke up and talked to Steve-darl a bit and other people like Chris. After a while I went to a pre-school here nearby my apartment. It was me and 2 friends in my study group and we watched the kids and took notes about how they communicate with each other and yes as u all prolly can tell its really different from us adults. Then we also interviewed the adults at the pre-school. So much fun to see those big eyes of the kids when new people come to visit them. U can see the curiousity in their eyes. Just sparkling. <3

Watching a movie right now, Arthur and the minimojs. Ive seen it so many times but I just love that movie. Especially that kids that playing the main character. Hes amazing. Same kid who plays Charlie in Charlie and the chocolate factory. End of the movie right now. Lil Mino is going to show Arthur where the rubys are.

I dont feel so good today. Right after I got home from school I took my temperature since Ive been walking outside in the rain and I was all wet when I got home. And cold and freezing. Brrrrr... Oh no school for like 5 days again. Thats amazing. Gonna be so good and Im just gonna relax all weekend. No party I think. I need to start to take more care of myself. I also live once and I gotta start thinking about that. And to much alcohol isnt that good. Im a bad girl -giggles-. Although Im not so good of taking care of myself always. I got this crazy idea that Im fat. I hate my tummy. I really do. So Im really gonna start to work hardcore right now. Gotta be hot and ready for beach 2009. And I wanna look awesome on new year and christmas of course. Mmmm christmas..

Gonna be a wierd christmas eve for me tho. I wont celebrate it with all my relatives like I used to. My moms brother and his family wont come cuz of my cousin who prolly is going to get his surgery somewhere around those days. So that 4 people missing just there. And my dads brother and his girlfriend and their son which is my godson, is going to celebrate christmas with his girlfriends family. So thats 3 more people not comming. And christmas is a really important holiday for me. Not because of the Jesus thing or anything like that. Just that day/days is everyone so close. Almost everyone is different and caring. And I can really feel that in my family. And I LOOOOVE presents. Just a little something puts a smile on me that can last for a week. Dont know what I want this year tho. But I still have a little while to think about it. Soon its time for me to start buy my gifts Im gonna give away. YEY! Best time of the year. I love it. And one thing that has the be on christmas is snow. I wouldnt survive a christmas without a white ground. Looks amazing.

Och but now I really need to go to bed. Im really sleepy.

Gnight everyone and take care of yourselfs/

Em<3

Thusday 9.25 pm

After a long day Im finally sitting down and just relaxing. Sure Ive been relaxing before today but not as much as now. I already told u how my day started and now Im gonna tell u how its gonna end. And what happened since I wrote earlier today.

So I went to school about 1 pm and we did alot of things. Like writing the interview questions we are gonna use tomorrow when we are visiting a school. We have to interview both kids and adults and we also gonna do observations on the kids and see how they communicate and stuff. Going to be so much fun. Then I got home and I played pc for a little while but I couldnt stay awake since i fell asleep pretty late last night and woke up several times this morning before I actually got out of bed.

So I took a amazing nap in my couch with a cat on my head. Im not kidding, my little Cow Moo slept on my head. Like the forehead. So cute but darn it was so god damn hot. Felt like I had 40 celsious fever or something. But I realised I didnt. =)

When I finally woke up I made myself something to eat. And today I made pancakes with cinnamon.... Mmmm.. I promise u, I dont think Im gonna be able to eat pancakes without cinnamon anymore. So darn good. If u havent tried it u sure should. And u can have jellt, icecream or sugar or whatever u use to pancakes also. Thats the great part. Since I usually eat with jelly. I think I prefer raspberry but strawberry isnt bad either. Mmmm..

After eating I decided to do some daily chores here in my apartment. And that means the dishes, the floors and doing some laundry. And of course the kitty toilet =) Dont want it to smell bad here. EWW!! And now Im done with my chores. And that feels amazing. I even had time to dance while I did them. But tomorrow Im gonna do some serious training. Yes Yes. Im gonna be a good girl. Even tho dancing is really good for ur body u also need to do other things. Maybe I can go out and walk and do some sit ups? Hmm or carmen electra striptease workout again. That is amazing for ur body. SUMMER 2009 HERE I COME!! WooHoo!!

Ugh Im gonna go watch a movie. Dont wanna sit here all day. And need to eat something before bed also. Otherwise Im gonna wake up all cranky in the morning and we dont want that do we?

Thinking about going out tomorrow. Not sure tho. I havent decided yet. Well I got like 1 day to decide so no rush.

a pic of me in my pjs Im wearing right now. I dont sleep in pjs tho. I sleep in just my panties. and the teddy bear on the picture is one of my favorite things. Got it like 2 years ago and I still have it in my favorite chair in my apartment. Means alot since I got it from someone whos special to me<3.>

Gnight Everyone out there/

Em<3

Thusday 11.42 am

Goooooood Morning!!

Woke up like 3 hours ago with a pain in my neck that was unbelivable. Guess I slept in a wierd position. But it feels waaaay better now. I can actually use my neck now again. So I sat down in my couch and relaxed. Im pro at relaxing right now. But I dont have anything to do during the days. I dont have much classes right now and my friends either work or go to school. So it kinda sucks.

After a little while I decided to take a shower and eat breakfast so Im ready. I do got school later today. We gonna start making the huge paper right now. So we gonna write questions for interviews we gonna have with some kids at a school. Its gonna be about communication between the kids and adults. Going to be really interesting. To see how kids communicate with eachother. That not a thing we usually think about or trying to understand.

So what else is going on today? Hm maybe some more training. I had really fun dancing yesterday. Although most ppl would prolly laugh at what Im wearing when im dancing. Well i wear different things. Depends on what kinda dance. Yesterday I had a short black skirt and a top. And the last thing i was wearing was high heels. =) I know a wierd idea. But I wear high heels at the bar so I had it when I was training. Not all the time tho. Just like 10 minutes maximum. Atleast it was fun.

And FINALLY the workers are leaving. They are getting all their things today and I wont see them walking outside my windows anymore and that makes me so.... Soooo.... hmm... Soo? Yeah im not really sure. But now I can walk naked at home again. -laughs-

No not naked but I can walk in just my panties and bra. Ever since they changed windows in my apartment its so god damn hot in here. OMG.. I dont know what Im gonna do. I barely can fall asleep since its to hot.

Gotta put some make up on soon. I dont wanna go to school and look like a mess. Dont like ppl staring =)

Have fun everyone and take care, Carpe Diem/

Em<3

Last one for today

Decided to write the last blog post for today. Ive been a good writer today. And Im having fun at the same time. I love sharing. Maybe I can be a inspiration to some ppl. And maybe some ppl gonna hate what I write but I dont really care. This is me and Im not gonna stop because someone doesnt like it. And find some new picture I can post here. I love pictures. Makes me smile.

Pictures is great memories. And so is rinkles. I know almost EVERYONE especially women hate rinkles and Im pretty sure Im gonna be disappointed if I get them in a early age. But rinkles is memories for me. And we need something to think of when we get older. I wanna have alot of stories to tell my grand children when Im old. Stories that makes them think I had a fun interesting life. I wanna be a rolemodel to the ppl I love. And so far I think Ive done alot of things. I could have done more but u also need money. If you dont have money u cant do much. And thats a shame. Some ppl say money cant buy happiness. And maybe thats true. But you need money to do stuff. Not easy to be without money today. Easpecially not if your raised in a country that always have money. And in a family where you dont need to think about it. Prolly easier for poor people in Africa or another poor place. But if they took our money here in Sweden, or electricity Im not sure we would be sane for long. We would prolly go nuts. Maybe Im wrong. Who knows?

Im finally watching My name is Earl before Im gonna watch a movie. Havent decided what movie yet. Its gotta be a fun one.

Hmm my cat is playing under the blanket. She found a cave. Shes insane.

Found 3 pics of me from a birthday party this year in February. Dont ask me what Im doing on all the pictures. I have no idea. Thats what alcohol do. -giggles-

Gnight everyone and take care/

Em<3

Stalkers

Just wanted to say I <3 my readers!!

Yeeeey

Im just so freakishly happy right now. I dont know why. And I cant describe the feeling. Its like butterflys in my tummy and Im all hubbly bubbly and giggling all the time. Its really wierd but I love the feeling.

So I started to clean my apartment. When I saw that one of my cats, prolly Pussy Mao, left me a pleasant surprise. She throwed up a hairball on my floor. And I cant really handle those things. So discusting. EWWY! But I couldnt just leave it there so I had to pick it up and clean the floor. When I was done with that I realised that she peed in my couch. And that made me pissed. She wanna make babies right now so sometimes its hard for her to make it to the toilet. So I got both surprised and really pissed since I just cleaned the couch after the renovation in here. So yea it sucked. But I gave her a shower and told her I was mad. =)

So that pretty much made me give up about the cleaning after that. No I did some things but Im far from finished.

Anyway. Right now Im watching Mad TV and O M G! !! ! I laugh so much that I cry. Its insane. Its like the funniest show ever. Hm perhaps saturday night live is better. And I do love simsons and family guy. =)

Ouch need to eat soon. My tummy is talking to me.

I just got a IM message from Nathan-darl. He said that he'll brb since he was talking to his dad. Nath-darl lives in UK while hes dad lives in US so its pretty far between them. So I understand if he wanna talk to him. And this is how the rest looks like:

Em säger:
kk im writing blog anyway
Nathan säger:
ooh nice
Nathan säger:
I'll check for it
Nathan säger:
www.google.com
Nathan säger:
Sorry, I needed a hot link
Nathan säger:
That's how lazy I am
Em säger:
-____-

Omg I laughed so much. Yea he's pretty lazy but I like him anyway. <3

Almost morning in cali now. Why am I stuck here in Sweden? I should be somewhere else. I should be in a bigger place. At the Bday party saturday night ppl asked me if I were at the student bar wednesday night. And i answered yes of course. I mean hey its so much fun there. And they asked me what I was wearing in case they had a photo of me. And I told them I was wearing a short jeans skirt and bunny ears and a top. The answer I got was pretty shocking. "U WERE THE GIRL WITH BUNNY EARS?"........

Another one asked me what bar I usually go to. And ym favorite bar is centrumbar, the bar i like above. And he like shouted "Ur the girl that always dance on the bar".. And YES thats me. I love dancing. If theres a stage or something like that, there is the place u gonna find me. I love to be seen. Got no problems with it. And Im kinda used to cameras also. So fun. Party girl!!!

Mm Justin Timberlake playing on MTV now. I WANT MAD TV AGAIN! Even tho I like Timberlake. Well theres another episod tomorrow. Guess I can see it then. But today is it My name is Earl on TV again.. <33333333333333333333333 ME LIKEY!!

Ugh gotta make something to eat soon. Im starving. And my brain just installed a dance mode. It just said "installation completed"

Take care everyone and have fun/

Em<3

Monday 2.21 pm

Wow. Dont think Ive written anything for about 2 days. Im ashamed. But I mean its been a busy weekend. Alot of things going on both in my life and in my mind.

Saturday!

So saturday started off pretty good. I relaxed and slept alot before the party. And I had a AWESOME dinner with a friend. We decided to go to a resturant nearby my apartment. And we had the best food ever prolly. Potatoes, a really nice steake and mushroom sauce made from fresh mushrooms. So darn good. I werent able to walk after that. I ate way to much for my own good. Luckily I dont get fat easily and I can eat that much sometimes. And once in a while we need to treat ourselfs something special. Doesnt matter what it is. Well ok as long as its not drugs Im satisfied. I HATE drugs.

Later that night we were off to a party. A Bday party for my friend. No idea how old he is but older then me atleast. Think hes like 23-25 or something lika that. Alot of ppl showed up and we had alot of fun listening to music, dancing and talking. I drank pretty much but not as much as Im used to drinking. I mean I could walk home by myself. None had to carry me. And I do remember everything off that evening. I had loads of fun.

Sunday!

Yesterday was fathers day here. so me and my sisters went shopping a gift for him. We bought him a really nice pair of designer underwear. Dont know what u buy in other countries but here underwear is common to buy for ur father as a fathers day gift. So nothing wierd with that. And they were awesome also. My sisters also got to pick something in the mall that I paid for them. My lil sisters. After we were done at the mall my grandfather picked us up and we drove home to my parents house to eat dinner. And OMG the most amazing delicious dinner EVER! We had a stew and potates. And i absolutly LOOOOOOVE stews. And after the dinner we just talked for a while and then it was time for coffee and cookies. Mmm.. Moms cookies. Im drooling just by thinking at them. Pure happiness. we had a really nice time and since I love my parents so much meeting them made my day. I have to see them like once a week or ill go insane. I miss them so much. If I cant visit them I usually call or they call once a week atleast. Im really close to my family and they mean alot to me. I wouldnt be anything without them.

Hm I havent told u about my family. I got a dad, a mom (ofcourse I had those two) and two sisters. Little sisters. One is 17 years old now and one just turned 12. Kinda scary to see them grow up. I dont think I can take it. Now its boys in their heads. And the youngest one is a teenager now. And everyone knows what that means. Guess they cant be kids forever even if I want them to be like maximum 10. Atleast Im proud over them.

Monday!

So what happened today? Well so far not much. Ive been playing some computer so far. And talked to Steve alot today. I like spending some time with my loved ones. I wanted to go out for a walk but its like storm here. Its raining and snowing at the same time and REALLY windy. So I decided not to go. Guess I have to do some workout at home. I mean carmen electras workout is really fun. I also need to clean my apartment today. Looks horrible in here after this weekend. I need to hire a maid or maybe I could marry one. Hmm.. Great idea. Maybe I should start the cleaning soon. And thinking about food also.

Ooooh I just realized that Ive been studying a lil bit today also. So ive been a good girl. Dont have class until tomorrow. So I can clean my apartment today, workout and then study for a lil while again. I need to write some interview questions cuz we're going out in school to interview kids about different things. And thats included in the really HUGE paper I have to write for school. Have to be done in 3 weeks. But we are 5 ppl that write that paper together so its gonna be fine. Going to be fun atleast. Mmm listening to music now which makes me so happy. I just love to sing. Playing right now Dr Feelgood - Blackteacher. YEY!!! Tokio Hotel on TV right now. Interview on MTV. Guess thats why i turned the volume down. I dont listen to them. But I had to turn the volume up now again cuz I wanna hear the singers voice. And yes u can really hear that they are german. I guess they are a good band but not what I listen to.

Hm I cat just hit my head with her pawn after jumping on me. She really doesnt like when I sit here to long without cuddling her. My lil mad Cow Moo. Crazy cat. Mmm cuddling the lil one right now.

Oh Im gonna look at a new apartment also witha balcony. My apartment dont have that right now and I want one. Balcony is awesome. Se Im gonna look at a new apartment. Same size, 3 rooms but with the balcony also. Would be great if I got that one. Sit there to eat breakfast in the mornings, not in the winter but summer. Mmm..... Like a dream.

I gotta get started with everything I need to do today. Ill write later hopefully.

Take care and enjoy ur day/

Em<3

2 days in Ems life

11.10 pm now. And Im hungry. Insane to be hungry at this time. But I need to listen to what my body is telling me instead of what my mind is telling me. Which usually is bad when it comes to food. Im really good at starving myself and we dont want that dont we =) !! So I decided yesterday Im gonna make some changes in my life since Im already underweight. 50 kilos and 1.67 metres tall. Thats underweight. So right now Im gonna eat 4 times a day. Atleast try to. Maybe ill start with 3 and then go up to 4. Cuz right now Im eating maximum 2 times a day. so right now I have potatoes boiling again. Im addicted to potatoes. Thats like the only thing that I really eat much of. When I eat I usually only eat so Im still a bit hungry when Im done. But NOT with potatoes, salmon and salsa. I mean not those 3 together, separate.

Listening to 80s and 90s music now also and it makes me soooooo happy.. All hubbly bubbly inside. Ooooooh potatoes almost done.. I can really feel the hunger now.

OMG I forgot to tell something REALLY embarrassing that happened yesterday. So I was really hungover. Just laying in my couch without make up or anything. Luckily I had clothes on, I have to since I have workers walking outside my windows all the time. So i went to open the door and got a HUGE shock. The really hot guy just looks at me really surprised and then he asked me "Oh this is ur apartment? U live here?". And I answered, even more surprised then he was, "ehe... yeaaa I do"... Then he asked me if I recognized him. And of course I did. That was my really old boyfriend I had like 9 years ago!!! And there hes standing outside my door. Hotter then ever and is about to enter my messy apartment. I had a party here the day before so it really looked like world war III in here. And it was only him who came. No other workers. And he started to talk to me and I looked AWFUL! Like hungover awful. And I was so ashamed over the apartment. I just wanted to die.

But I atleast got to talk to Steve-love. And thats something I really missed since that lil man havent been online forever.

So about my day today. I woke up 7 am and made myself ready for school. Then I just sat down infront of the pc to spend some time with my friends and talk. I had a really good time. Then off to school where I found out that Steve-love is santa. OMG!! I had no idea about that. Think hes joking tho -giggles- He said hes santa when I said Im innocent. I dont look innocent? I think I do. Dont u guys think that? Maybe we should vote for that. A nice research. Am Emelie innocent or not? Please answer =)

Then I just went home to my apartment and ate and relaxed. Took care of my beloved cats. They dont really like all the noices the workers are making here now. Another thing my cat Pussy Mao doesnt like is me drunk. When I get home drunk she runs away from me. She wont let me touch her or even look at her. The best alcotest EVER!

So right now Im watching VH1 channel on TV. They are playing really old music and I love it. Childhood memories.. Makes me happy.

Tomorrow it is a party. And I gotta go. A friends Bday. But this time Im gonna remember to eat before and dont drink to much. But time to go now since potatoes are done.. YUMMY!!!

Take care /

Em <3

Greece

I just had to put some pics of the most beautiful place on the earth here. Kefalonia in Greece. Visited that place this summer. Myrtos beach (above)
Just a nice lil place on the way to the beach near the hotel

Our hotel and the view

A november thursday

Another thursday in my life. Not much happened today either. Mostly relaxed since I got a hungover after the party last night. I had really fun. The student bar is amazing. Always crowded with ppl alot of exchange students. OMG I had so darn fun. I was dancing all night and yea perhaps I took way to many shots and did some things I regret. But u only live once =)

Since it was a costume party I had bunny ears. I didnt wanna have another big since ive already been on 2 costume partys now. So I decided that bunny ears is enough. I also had my jeans skirt and a nice new party top I bought and my boots for that. I looked AWESOME!

But I woke up dead this morning but after my amazing breakfast including scrambled eggs, 2 sandwiches (wheat bread) one with turkey and one with cheese, a glass of fresh orange juice, a glass of milk and some tea, I got way better.

Then for dinner I ate POTATOES (YUMMMMMMY), fish and a eggsauce which I totally loooooove.

And guess what happened yesterday. My love came back online. Made me really happy.... <33

Time for bed now. Im tired as hell.. YAWNIE!!!

Have fun and take care/

Em<3

So I said last night that I was supposed ot post some more pic here of my life. And Im also going to do that. But first lets do some writing.

I woke up today early as always cuz of the noices the workers are doing. But Im kinda used to it now. I sat down in the couch watchin some TV and had a great breakfast.. YUMMY! Toasts cut in triangles with apricot/orange jelly, a cup ot english breakfast tea (like always, it is my favorite tea) and a glass of milk. Yummy.. Oh almost forgot that I had a egg also.. That was like the most perfect breakie ever. Although it would be even better if someone gave it to me on the bed. Woke me up and gave me breakfast. Oh sounds like a dream for me. Then Ive just relaxed today. Took a nice shower, I do that every day but today it felt extra nice. Dont know why. And its a wierd day today. Im so darn happy and I have no idea why. I really need it since alot of things happened lately. Especially in my family. I dont mean that Im sad all the time, I just didnt have this feeling in a couple of days. And I LOOOOOOVE it. I got butterflys in my tummy and dont know why. I guess Im in love with life today. And maybe someone else. Guess I have to figure out by myself what my body is trying to tell me. Mysterious. But sometimes u need that also.

I was talking to Nathan today about what I think about life and stuff. And i said that its important to use ur days. I strongly belive in carpe diem. So my mottos in life is "Carpe Diem" and "What u remember didnt happen"!! -giggles-

So whats happening tonight. Im going to a student halloween party at the studentbar here in Jönköping. Cheap alcohol and its only students that is allowed in there. Its so much fun. I love that bar. And its huge. Hotta buy some alcohol tho.. Hmm soon.. YEEEY!

Dont really know what to write now. Guess Ill just post some pics and then write more later on.

This is my favorite dog ever. Shes a great dane/ rottwieler and she HUGE! I love to play crocodile wrestling with her. Shes prolly the nicest dog on earth and she thinks shes a lapdog.. Which shes NOT! More party pics from the halloween party this weekend. Dont ask me what Im doing cuz I have NOOO idea. I just got them from a friend. Atleast I had fun =)

Take care and Ill write more later/ Em<3

O__O

Omg I haven wrote anything all day. I feel kinda bad now.

So what happened today? Damn good question Emelie. I dont really know. Its been like a relaxing day for me today. Just be with myself at home. Just take it easy and think about life.. WOW that sounds kinda boring. But u need those days also.I mean party 24/7 is dangerous for ur health. Trust me I know. I tried that last winter and in January i was a total wreck. Im not sure how I could survive all that partying but I did. Atleast I had damn fun.

But anyways I woke up really early today again cuz of the workers. They dont renovate in my apartment anymore but the apartment above me. So I woke up by ALOT of noices. Good thing I wasnt hungover cuz then that would have been my death... So I already said that I woke up early. What happened after that? Well I took a nice warm shower and just sat down in the couch relaxing and eating a great breakfast including eggs, toast with apricot jelly and a cup of english breakfast tea. After 1 hour of breakfast eating and watching spongbob i started to play some computer. After a lil while my sister called and asked if she could come over for a while since she didnt have anything to do while the others in school had class and she didnt. So she came over to visit me for 1 hour. We just sat and talked and had a fun time.. <3>

So what am I doing now. Well I just watched some TV, ugly betty and desperate housewifes and right now they r showing the movie 40 days and 40 nights on channel 3. Not that I watch much, Im mostly writing and talking to ppl in ventrilo. Like Da Nathan <3!!>

Found a cute picture of my cat Kossan Mu (black and white one) and one on Tissen Mao (tiger one) My cutiepies... My darlings. Love them so much. Tissen Mao wanna make babies right now and its kinda annoying since shes screaming ALL the time.

Sleepy sleepy time soon. But what am I planning to do tomorrow? Hmm maybe make some cookies or something. I make the BEST cupcakes in the world.. YUMMY!! And I really gotta start planning new year also. Omg I have alot to do. Wish I could just go away and let someone else do everything. Even tho we are like 4 ppl planning new year I do ALL the work... Which is really exhausting sometimes. And this year Im trying to make it even bigger and get new ppl in. Lets see how everything works out. Im sure Im gonna fix it someway or another.

Still miss Steve<3>

Okej gotta go. Ill write later... maybe... otherwise Ill write tomorrow. Hm maybe Im gonna post some more pics... Yes think Im gonna do that before I go to bed. But for now

Take care/

Em<3

Yawnie

Im in my bed right now writing the last blog post for today. Well not that i wrote so many today but still.
So what happened today? Like I said before I had to wake up really early to leave the apartment since they were gonna switch windows here. So I had to leave my messy apartment around 7.30 am. The worst thing was that i had to lock my cats in the toilet. They couldnt be out there while the workers were here walking around with a open door and open windows. it just wouldnt work. And I couldnt bring my loved ones to my parents house either since they got a dog that HATE cats. And I really mean hate. So that was the only option. Of course they had their litterbox, food and water and something to play with and something to sleep on. Im not that mean. I was just protecting them..
My cats are amazing. Prolly one of my favorite animals, exept bears that is. But then again I love almost all animals especially the fluffy ones. The fluffier the better -giggles-..
So i have one cat that is a little bit more then 1.5 years old. Her name is Pussy Mao although in Swedish (Tissen Mao), shes really intelligent and knows how to open doors and stuff.
And then I got a really stupid clumsy cat, her name is Cow Mo (Kossan Mu). I named her that because she looks like a cow and shes kinda fat. But she looooooves to cuddle. Usually get mad if I study or play computer to long and dont play with her. So much fun.

So I went home to my parents house and had some breakie then I watched TV and slept for like 6 hours. I dont know why but I think I was that tired cuz I didnt sleep that good and I had to wake up early. But when I got home again around 5 pm I noticed that they already were done with changing the windows. So I started to clean my apartment (messy workers) and put everything to order again. So now it looks like my home again which I really like.
After that I had some tacos. Not the best food but damn i deserved it. After that I played some computer with my friends and 10 pm i watched my favorite TV show My name is Earl. OMG!! I laugh so freakin much when i see that show. Hilarious.

And havent seen Steve in like 2 days now. Which is really boring. I love talking to him. Stupid internet there. Im gonna kill it -giggles- .. I hope Ill see him tomorrow..

Ugh gotta start plan the new years eve party I have every year. Well every year is maybe the wrong thing to say but this is the fifth year in a row that I had that party. Feels kinda boring right now to do that. But would be fun if more ppl, I mean new ppl could come, but most of my new friends live outside Sweden and that totally sucks. Atleast they are welcome here. Well I can think about all that tomorrow. Im falling asleep now. Yaaaawns..

Ill write more tomorrow. Have fun everyone and take care. Please feel free to comment
Hugs/
Em<3

Tired

I had to wake up early today. Really early. Right now its almost 7.30 am but I woke up 1.5 hour ago and that means 6 am. And all this because they gonna renovate inside my apartment today. Change all the windows so I cant be here right now. So for the next 8 hours this apartment isnt mine. My bus leaves really soon. Gonna spend some time at my parents house today. Im gonna be home alone but better to be there then here or somewhere else.
And I dont have school this week either.
PLEASE LET THIS ONLY TAKE ONE DAY! I dont wanna get up early tomorrow either. I wanna be able to be in my own apartment and wake up when the fk I want. -Yawns- Guess I have to get myself ready now since I gotta go soon.
Ill write later
Hugs/
Em <3

Snow in Jönköping

I just had to put a picture of the snow here also. The first picture is taking from inside the car. but I love it. So amazing with the clouds. Makes me happy. This is on the way to Sofias Bday dinner. The second picture is on the way home from the dinner. Around 6 am my time. Really beautiful. And the third picture of me and the outfit I was wearing =) I look horrible but I dont really care =)

Ems weekend adventure!!

So I was way to hungover to write yesterday. I mean I couldnt think. I couldnt even talk properly yesterday.

So what happened friday night? Well we started off with a lil pre-party at my place. Just a few ppl playing some drinking games, talking and having fun. It was really nice. A friend I havent seen in AGES came. Wow so much fun to see her again.

So as I said we started off with some drinking games like ring of fire. Its a great icebreaker and makes ppl laugh and of course drunk.

Then after a while we decided to take a break and do a song about a pickle. Sounds wierd I know but damn ppl laugh so much when we do it. We laughed so much that our tummys hurt.

Then we danced a little. Well ok a lot and I LOOOOVE dancing. After some games and ALOT of alcohol we decided to go to the bar.

I live on top of the bar so no jackets or anything just run down and have a blast.

Omg it was so much ppl and everyone was looking. Atleast the guys. Kind of a wierd feeling at first when u enter a room and everyone is looking at u. But heeeey. I liked it. My costume for the evening was a really cute nurse-ish costume with a underskirt to make it more fluffy =). I dont know how many drink I had exept I have a clue that is was many since when I got home I couldnt walk. I had so many free drinks... It was insane. And some slimy pick up lines also. But I survived atleast and had so much fun dancing on the stage so everyone could see me. Wasnt the greatest idea to stand there tho since my dress was really short and I had white lace thongs under. So a lot of ppl prolly saw my butt. But I dont really care. Its just my butt and everyone got one. Nothing special with mine.

The costume I was wearing. Dont mine the poses since I was drunk when we took those picture.

And yesterday I went to celebrate Sofias Bday. We took the care early in the morning, atleast that was early when ur hungover. And that was a great dinner. Mmm.... Fish and potatoes and a amazing sauce. I LOOOVE fish. Especially salmon. Thats my favorite one I think. Mmmm... Fish. But I was really tired and that was the worst hungover ever. Well I didnt have any headache but it felt like my body had been run over by a truck 5 times and I was really really really tired. But I drank alot of water and stuff and had vitaminpills so later on I felt good again.

One really good thing with going to Sofia was that I could take some pictures of the snow we have here right now. Well not in the city where I live but futher out. Really beautiful. Although it wouldnt surprise me if it started to snow in the city today since its SOOO COLD!!!

Ouch.. My stomach talks to me and tells me to feed it. But I dont like to eat breakfast, but I have to. Its important to eat. And breakfast is the most important meal on the entire day. So I guess I have to eat it. Ill force myself. Muahahah...

So whats happening today? Well in about 4.5 hours Im gonna go to my parents house and eat and celebrate my sisters 12 Bday.. My sisters starts to grow up and thats a scary feeling. I got one that is 17 now and one thats 12. I want them to be like maximum 10 years old. Horrible.

Well time to get something to eat I guess cuz Im really starving now.... And I can hear the stomach yell like every 10 second "feeeeeeed me"! I take that as a sign that I should eat and not skip breakfast today.. Ill write more later tonight and tell u guys how the Bday party was.

Take care/

Em<3

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Kind of a sucky day today. Found out that my cousin, hes like 1 year old, is really sick. Something wrong with his lungs or something in that area. So now they have to open his chest of and try to fix the problem. And theres a chance that he wont survive since hes that young.

Its hard. I think I really cant handle the problem the way I want since Im all moody and everything affects me in a bad way.

Ive been crying since I got home. Well on the way home also from class. And that was embarrassing, I feel weak when i cry. But dont know what to do right now.

So I decided to forget the problem tonight and go out and have fun.

Costume party at the bar and its going to be fun I guess. Got my costume today also =) A amazing nurse costume. Me likey.

Trying to think positive right now. And positive is getting so damn drunk so I dont think about real life today. Gotta wait a lil tho. I cant start drinking at 1.40 pm -___-

Well time to go and do something. Need to think of something else.