Memories

Im sitting here after my class looking at pictures I got on my PC... And like 90% of them is party pictures. And thats kinda scary cuz Im always so drunk on them. Im gonna put one or more here. Atleast I have so much fun when Im out and alot of friends get like sad if I dont come to the party since I always make everything funnier and make something to happen. Im almost on my way to do to dishes now. Im just so god damn tired its insane. So I guess Im gonna have to drink more tea today. And no school tomorrow.

I was thinking in the shower one day. I was standning there looking down on my tummy. Which is like the one thing I HATE with my body. U know on commercials and in magazines I always see this perfect girl with the perfect flat tummy. Im not saying Im fat or anything, Im still under weight. But I dont got that perfect tummy they do. And that makes me kinda jealous. Then I realised that those pictures almost always are fixed. Its hard to look that perfect and if your a normal human being that takes alot of time and effort to look like that. And alot of people spend money because they wanna look like that girl in the magazine. I cant deny that Ive been thinking those things also because that would be lying and I dont lie. Im a honest person and I always speak the truth unless its REALLY necessery. I mean I cant even lie. If I do you gonna notice it immediatly. I suck at lying and thats a good thing. Oh snap Im just babbling I dont even remember what I was talking about... wait.... Oh yea perfect bodies. So I looked down on my horrible tummy and realised that I cant look like that now. I cant. I wanna be me the normal person and not think about how I look 24/7. Ofcourse I can eat healthy but I cant go training 3 hours a day and buy expensive products to make me look like someone everyone apperantly wants. But.. A HUGE but.. Steve-love told me something wierd I really couldnt understand a while ago. Here alot of guys want that skinny perfect commercial girl. Not anorexia skinny but skinny with a flat tummy and looks perfect. But he said that he and other guys over there dont want that. They wants something to grab on to. Um.. U know what I mean. A normal body that actually got a lil fat on it. And ever since I heard more and more guys from other countries say that. Why is it so different here? Or is it only in my town? Wierd. I can be the most beautiful woman on the earth for the right person.

I have to write more later. Time for some cleaning while my internet sucks. And I really dont wanna study today. Im to tired. =)

And Ashley about that timebomb. Im not sure where it comes from, but maybe your write. <33>

And Ill post the pictures after the cleaning! Then you hopefully got something to look forward to!

Enjoy your day and take care of yourself/

Em<3